28. Hard to get - Rich Mullins

There are few Christian songs that do justice to the actual experience of being a Christian, of wading through this world trying to make sense of it all. Nobody does it better than Rich Mullins on this song. He says it how it is. A song for the dark times when it really does feel like hope has gone, a song for the times you need to ask God these questions:

"Do you who live in heaven
Hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth?
Who are afraid of being left by those we love
And who get hardened by the hurt?
Do you remember when You lived down here where we all scrape
To find the faith to ask for daily bread?
Did You forget about us after You had flown away?
Well I memorized every word You said,
Still I'm so scared, I'm holding my breath
While You're up there just playing hard to get

And I know you bore our sorrows
And I know you feel our pain
And I know it would not hurt any less
Even if it could be explained
And I know that I am only lashing out
At the One who loves me most
And after I figured this, somehow
All I really need to know
Is if You who live in eternity
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time
We can't see what's ahead
And we can not get free of what we've left behind

I'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears
All the words of shame and doubt, blame and regret
I can't see how You're leading me unless You've led me here
Where I'm lost enough to let myself be led
And so You've been here all along I guess
It's just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get"